Teaching With Fear

by: Dallas Darling, t r u t h o u t | Op-Ed

Sometime Truthout contributor, military veteran and teacher, Dallas Darling, shares his personal experience of the social costs of pacifist opinions.

When teachers Marbeth Verani and Adeline Koscher held up their signs questioning the lengthy and ongoing wars in Afghanistan at a school assembly honoring six students who enlisted in the U.S. military, their gesture recalled a choice I made twenty years ago. Verani and Koscher will have to live with their choice, as I must live with mine, and they will more than likely suffer reprimands and severe consequences for their actions.

After the 1989 U.S. invasion of Panama, in which 5,000 innocent civilians were slaughtered and 60,000 people were left homeless, I filed for Conscientious Objector Status in the U.S. Army as a commissioned officer. (My decision was also influenced by my work with veterans from the Vietnam Conflict and my embrace of the major tenets of pacifism and nonviolence. I wanted to seek a path other than militarism and war.)

Instead, I was activated for Gulf War One. When I reported to my designated military base, I refused to carry a weapon and participate in what I considered to be acts of violence and dehumanization of the "other." I was placed under military surveillance and considered a threat to national security. Since I no longer wanted to kill, I was ordered to seek counsel with Army Chaplains and psychologists, and to obtain legal advice.

Fortunately for me - but not for the hundreds of thousands of Iraqis that died during and after Gulf War One - it was a very short war. However, the death threats, hate mail, and vandalism continued after I returned home. Unremitting persecution and oppression plagued me, too. It eventually cost me several important relationships and two careers. I finally left the state where I was born and raised.

Now, I teach, but I do so with fear, for I have lived, and continue to live, in the belly of a beast: a corporatist military empire. When I kept quiet, I received Teacher of the Year. But now that I have started to become more vocal about my past and the dangers of U.S. militarism and its conflicts, or when I present both the pros and cons of war and peace and then encourage my students to think critically, talk to their parents, and form their own beliefs, reprimands often follow. Gone are the days of awards and promotions.

This year was the very first time I told several students about my pacifism and conscientious objection in the U.S. Army. In other words, due to fears and persecution, it took me twenty years to finally tell a handful of students my narrative and experiences. (I was once asked to leave a school district because I taught racial equality and had questioned U.S. militarism and the preemptive wars in Afghanistan and Iraq.)

I teach in the corner of a fairly large high school. Not far from my classroom is the Junior ROTC classroom, where several hundred students learn about character, honor, duty, leadership, military history, and of course, U.S. militarism. (Several ROTC students are in my history classes. We hold each other's views, opinions, and discussions in high regard. Several of those students have sought me out for counsel and advice about the possibility of killing someone.)

Not only do students march and train in the hallways, but it is common to see military personnel strolling through the school. Two military instructors oversee the Junior ROTC Program, which receives $350,000 annually. Almost weekly, Army, Marine, Air Force, and Navy recruiters are stationed in the Activity Center with information, giveaway items and games, not to mention military testing materials and complete access to student information.

Recruiting posters adorn the school and the counseling office. In the library, there are life-size cardboard cutouts of military individuals dressed in battle fatigues. As if that weren't enough, the cutouts are surrounded by more recruiting materials. Students are reminded regularly to sign up for the Selective Service. The history books and curriculum, which corporations have come to realize are a lucrative multi-billion dollar industry, are filled with U.S. wars, most of them uncritical, extremely patriotic, and filled with highly selective information that promotes a corporatist perspective.

The histories of pacifism, pacifists, and anti-war movements are almost totally absent from the curriculum and textbooks. In this pro-military climate, I teach with fear. I also understand that militarism and wars will always be a part of my life, just as they are a part of the lives - directly or indirectly - of most people living in the U.S. And whereas fascist military empires of the past violently purged their pacifists, the U.S. military-corporate-academic complex "softly" purges its pacifists and peace activists by subjecting them to the type of culture I have just described.

Evidently, the two teachers held up signs that read, simply, "End War." Judging from the comments in the paper and online, it appears that, like me, these women have started a very difficult and arduous pacifist journey. Many have already accused the two teachers of crossing a line, of being unpatriotic, of being traitors, and of treating their own students with disrespect. Some students have leafleted the teachers' classrooms with signs like "Support Our Troops."

Demands have already been made for the two teachers to be fired. Some parents claim the teachers' actions were disrespectful because U.S. troops are defending the nation and fighting for freedom. Marbeth Verani defended her actions by saying she was showing students how to exercise dissent in a democracy. She also welcomed the signs outside her classroom that have ridiculed and condemned her as a way to foster open debate and dialogue.

But, like me, she will come to realize that the U.S. is not the democracy its founders theorized, and that there is little debate in education, or in society, about U.S. militarism and its preemptive wars (let alone any viable form of protest and dissent). Then-President George Bush, Sr. was right when he said the Gulf War "kicked the Vietnam syndrome once and for all!" It was kicked when U.S. soldiers became identified with every war fought by corporations and their politicians, and when the costs, horrors, and consequences of war were censored until many of us were desensitized to their very existence, or at least their significance.

Obviously, the students who were being honored were stunned. I wish someone would have stunned me before I had sworn allegiance to U.S. militarism and all of its wars fought and maintained by a fascist military empire. I hope those students who believe it will be difficult to view Verani and Koscher as role models will reconsider. It is not very pleasurable being a local, state, or even national target because you oppose war or hold other pacifist beliefs. Nor is it agreeable, or very democratic, to constantly live in and teach with fear.

The two teachers at Dennis-Yarmouth Regional High School are facing disciplinary action and have been suspended. Verani, who also refused to stand during a standing ovation for the military students being honored at the mandatory assembly, told the Cape Cod Times, "What message have they sent to students in the assembly who also chose not to give a standing ovation for militarism, or for students who were too afraid not to stand?"

I must ask this question too: When will pacifists and pacifism in this nation ever be honored at a high school assembly?

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Dallas Darling is the author of "Politics 501: An A-Z Reading on Conscientious Political Thought and Action," "Some Nations Above God: 52 Weekly Reflections On Modern-Day Imperialism, Militarism, And Consumerism in the Context of John's Apocalyptic Vision," and "The Other Side Of Christianity: Reflections on Faith, Politics, Spirituality, History, and Peace." He is a correspondent for www.worldnews.com. You can read more of Dallas' Daily Digest at www.beverlydarling.com and wn.com//dallasdarling.

 


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So, exercising Freedom of

So, exercising Freedom of Speech is not a freedom we fight for but, one that is punished for?!

America is a farce that becomes more and more less relevant for everyday that we tolerate Corporatism.

The only freedom was fight for is consumerism and that will be our end.



Welcome to life on the

Welcome to life on the plantation.

You are not free.

U.S. history is written in blood.

[The war in] Afghanistan has nothing to do with protecting the U.S. and spreading democracy. It is the same old, same old racket Major General Smedley Butler wrote about.

Google: history of U.S. armed conflicts.
Below is a representative hit.

http://www.historyguy.com/american_military_history.html



It is unfortunate that the

It is unfortunate that the government will go far out of their way to police individuals who consider aggressive wars on other countries that aren't really doing anything to be economically unfeasible and wasteful. Nothing wrong with supporting troops and hating their leaders. What they don't realize is what the state of Vietnam Veterans are these days. That they will return home broken, traumatized, uneducated, and in a recessive country that will inevitably begin to take its toll on their psychological health. They don't realize that it will be pacifists and peace advocates that will fight the hardest for them to have full support from the VA, homes and jobs. Just have them look at stories like Army Specialist Alyssa Peterson, or Corporal Andrew White, or Guardsman Gary Pfleider to realize that it's not the civilian population that needs encouragement to support the troops.



fear & greed is the

fear & greed is the underlying monsters we need to deal with as a society



This story is an almost

This story is an almost proto-typical consequence of the sorry state to which the United States has sunk. As Peter and Adoregon have stated above: America has become a farce -- a destructive farce, of course, but a farce nonetheless -- and we ARE NOT FREE.

How many of our young people are we willing to be thrown into the meat-grinder of the MIC? The blood of untold thousands of innocent men, women and children is on our hands, yet we seem to lust for ever more, all so the G***da**ed corporations can extend hegemony over the planet, and exclusively enrich the plutarchs. Jabba the Hut is an excellent caricature of the vile, greedy rich, who devote enormous resources to entrenching their power and riches. Swift extermination of them is much too good for them; they need to suffer a lingering, excruciating, agonizingly painful removal from the gene pool.



Dallas Darling - YOU are my

Dallas Darling - YOU are my hero.



It has been said that the

It has been said that the only real hero is a dead hero, and that the raison d'etre of a soldier is to deal in death, his own or someone else's.

I appreciate the courage of Verani and Koscher, who, as teachers in a system that relies on the impressing of information on forming minds insist that there are other choices than those offered by the curriculum.

It bothers me that military personnel dolled up in their fatigues and other military costumes are permitted on a high school campus. As if engaging in a contest other than as a non-lethal sport on a field has honor.

Our veterans may well be bitter about their treatment by the "country they fought for." They come back maimed in body and soul, knowing that what they fought "to preserve" was Disneyland, Coca Cola, Halliburton, and the system that doesn't care at all about the rest of us as well. I'm sorry they chose that way to learn a lesson they could have learned by being out of work for a year. It doesn't make them honorable, or special. Just hurt.

Welcome to the world.



Good article. I have just

Good article. I have just one thing to add to it. At the end, Darling asks the question, "When will pacifists and pacifism in this nation ever be honored at a high school assembly?" If and when that day comes, I propose that the first honor go to Jeannette Rankin, the first woman elected to the U.S. Congress and the _only_ Congress member who voted against U.S. entry into World War II. Arguably the loneliest pacifist of all, she nonetheless held to her convictions and campaigned for peace all her life.



Cindy, the defining

Cindy, the defining difference between then and now is that WW2 was fought against a deeply depraved, genocidal evil. This time, the evil exists in dark places within our allegedly free nations. Pogo said it: We have met the enemy — and they are us.



Why are members of Vietnam

Why are members of Vietnam Veterans Against the War and veterans opposed to the Gulf, Iraq, and Afghanistan wars invited to speak to high school student assemblies? Oh wait that might be too democratic.

Nevertheless, I don't understand how young people who enlist can be so unaware of those who served in these campaigns and returned physically and mentally broken.



Pacifism, now that's a hard

Pacifism, now that's a hard one. It's not something you are going to win at. No medals.

You are not going to stop war or kids going to war. You are not going to change any minds. You are not going to win any arguments because the folks for war think they are the rational ones -- and there are infinitely more of them then lonely you. You are going to lose.

And if they want to harass and harm you there is little you can do to stop them because... you are a pacifist and can't harm them back.

What you are is a witness of one. Or more accurately one less. And the folks who think they are right hate dissent. Hate that they can't convince or coerce everyone. Hate that someone does not believe them.

So get out there and witness. No one is going to applaud. But they will make fun of you.

Google old Irish song -- obviously written by women -- Johnny, I Hardly Knew Thee. (in Civil War U.S. it was flipped into the pro-war, When Johnny Comes Marching Home Again!)

Read, In Solitary Witness by Gordon Zahn about one of the few conscientious objectors in Nazi Germany, Hans Yaggerstadder. (prob. misspelled name) They cut off his head.



Dallas Darling,

Dallas Darling,  I have the deepest respect and admiration for what you are doing. I also try to teach my students alternative ways of looking at the present wars; I teach them what MLK had to say about peace; I teach them about the use of torture; I show them both sides and encourage them to think critically.  While I also teach in fear, I am an adjunct at local community colleges, where I suspect I have a bit more freedom than I would in a public high school.   So far nobody’s complained to any dean. 
 
Many say what I am doing is dangerous.  I say, well, we hold the German people in contempt for standing by as the Nazis committed their atrocities.  When questioning the official story of our military actions becomes traitorous in the minds of so many US citizens, we have to wonder if we aren’t going down a similar path.  That may seem like an absurd comparison to some, and I hope it is. But if “Collateral Murder” had been released when I was coming up in the world, there would have been a national outrage.  No such outrage in the here and now. Something’s incredibly wrong. 
 
 



Here in rural, central PA,

Here in rural, central PA, we've had a weekly vigil off and on since 1967 reminding passersby of the alternatives to the warfare state and militarism. Responses have differed as time has passed. At this year's annual Veteran's parade, the weekend before Independence Day, we carried signs such as "Celebrate Independence, ours and others, NOT military subjugation." Some said we should be ashamed of ourselves, but most of the comments were agreeable and supportive. Persistence, refusal to be intimidated and the applicability of the first amendment in public places seems to work.



As the mother of a blind

As the mother of a blind Iraqi vet (member of the AZARNG) I wonder that very few people ever discuss the reality that is the lack of interest in the wounded warriors.

We rarely hear about those who come back broken other than that more money is being asked for Veteran's Benefits. Veteran's Hospitals are disgustingly thin on visitors as I witnessed at several while my son was being treated.

Corporate America and the Pentagon do not want the travails of the soldier to be stressed; they suppress it at every turn. No coffins are seen, seldom are stories told.

Every time somebody says we are fighting for our freedom I ask "When was it in danger of being taken away? I must have missed that."

Obviously the answer is when war got to be profitable. The people of America are not consulted before we go to war and we have no power to end these obviously scurrilous conflicts.

Where is our freedom here? Constant war is debilitating an entire generation of men, women, and their families - but nobody seems to care much. The talk about the cost of war, yes, but not the broken bodies and souls of our own families, the cost of future medical care and the quality of life that is gone forever.



Dear Dallas Darling, Marbeth

Dear Dallas Darling, Marbeth Verani and Adeline Koscher,
Thank you for this compelling article and your courage. We wanted to write to you as soon as we read this and offer our support personally, as former teachers.We also want to offer support from Americans Who Tell the Truth. Americans Who Tell the Truth ( see americanswhotellthetruth.org) is a portrait series created and dedicated to our nation’s truth tellers, individuals such as yourselves. The portraits and book are in schools all over the country and are designed to provoke conversations in schools as you have but also , to encourage activity in the ways you have demonstrated. It is only through these truths that our students will have any better options for the future and that we, as the adults in their lives, can reflect morality. Schools must be places of decency and advocacy; you have certainly shown this to us.

We invite you to see the website , contact usI and become part of this movement in schools and communities. We always say that each portrait stands for so many people ‘s actions and courage. Certainly, you are represented here, all three of you! We hope you will be in touch with us! BRAVO! Contact information is on the site. We would love to offer our support in some way and hope to hear from you soon.



I was taken back by the

I was taken back by the local television news piece on this high school incident. The newscasters were so biased, they only presented one side, and they did not present the views of any students or parents who supported the teachers. I was also taken back by the simplistic level of thinking in students who opposed what the teachers did -- they seemed to lack, to an extraordinary extent -- critical thinking skills or any understanding of dissent as a fundmentally honorable tradition in American society. What do they think they're "fighting for" when they're "fighting for their country" ? Do they have any awareness whatsoever as to how young people ruthlessly used for oil interests ?

As a parent of a public high school student, I am strongly opposed to any military recruiting in the public school system. And if they're going to have any glorification or enoblement of the military, I want equal time for voices of peace and non-violence in the schools too. Let some Veterans For Peace get standing ovations. Let guidance counselors tell students the full range of possibilities should they decide to embark upon a career with the military. Not excluding death, loss of any kind of body part, lack of full medical coverage upon return, killing civilians, life-time mental health issues and psychological trauma, unemployment after discharge, rates of homelessness among veterans, and so on. It is unconscionable to me that people licensed to work with minors should not be advising them of these risks if they are promoting careers in a military involved in the immoral series of wars our government has been involved in.



If they're going to have

If they're going to have army recruiters in the hallways of our public schools, why don't they just cut to the chase, and have some oil executives from Chevron, Exxon, BP, et al walking up and down past the classrooms. They can chat with the students about how much money they make in the oil industry, and tell them personally how they need some good slaves with guns to go kill and maybe be killed or maimed for them and their pocketbooks. Give them the real scoop on the job offer and how much they'll be making themselves plus medical benefits for any brain damage on return, but most importantly, who they're REALLY working for when they sign up!

Not in my name, school districts ! Not in the name of MY America !



A standing ovation for all

A standing ovation for all three of these teachers, writer and demonstrators, and any others who teach peace not war. You have the support of many Americans, parents, students, and other professionals and workers who are opposed to our involvement in Afghanistan and Iraq.



Jeannette Rankin was a

Jeannette Rankin was a social worker - a profession much maligned by the powers that be. Elect more social workers to Congress and watch what happens.

I remember Phyllis Schafly telling us not to pass the Equal Rights Amendment in 1970s. She predicted it would result in women becoming combat soldiers. Well, we did not get equal rights or equal pay but she was right about women in combat! I worry about these young women coming home to care for their children when they are living with PTSD. How many of you realize that being a combat veteran is a risk factor for homelessness and addiction?No, we do not care for our troops, only as a slogan.

The best thing we can do is stop supporting corporations as much as possible. Now, there is a beast that I would like to starve until it was small enough to drown in a bathtub!